Elosiphy

Main Points:

1. Philosiphy in general is negative as it focuses on problems.
2. Negativity lacks the insperation and creativity of life.
3. I'm going to try to shape this blog to a more positive side of things.


Note, this is a day late because a student got arrested in College Inn last night. That's the rule, if a student gets arrested, I don't write a blog. (I actually wrote one but it got deleted in the midst of action).

My mom brought up this point while reading my previous articles. They are very negative. And that struck me as odd, because I am a very positive person, probably too positive if anything. But when I write about philosiphy it's negative. Now there is the obvious reason, I'm writing at 1 in the morning and I am freaking tired. But I think there is another reason, and that's what I wanted to ponder on today. Philosiphy survives off of negative attitudes.

My theory is that religion/philosiphy answer problems. Ethics answer questions like: how should we treat the environemnt? How do we deal with immigration? The deeper questions in life seem to revolve around our lack of purpose and motivation: What is the meaning of life? How should one live a "good" life? etc. Religion answers problems of our fear: What happens when I die? Why do bad people go unpunished? How was I created?

Now these are some big questions. As a thinker, believe you me, I have thought of these a bit too much myself, especially when it comes to girls. I could write a whole book on the philosiphy of thinking about dating without actually really doing it. But I'm going to challenge philosiphy. Why should we focus on the "problems". Most often, the solutions come out of, not thought, but creativity and insperation. Perhaps if philisophy does a little more celebrating, pondering on what is good, and dancing with life, the other problems will solve themselves.

I would love to read the philosiphy of fun. How does one have fun? Now I've been asking that question since I was a kid. But it doesn't get answered because its not a problem. Perhaps if we pondered on that a little more, the rest would come together.

So I guess I'm issuing a challenge to myself and to philosiphy in general. Focus on the good. If you have a really bad day, sure, focus on it. But some time life doesn't need answers, it just needs to celebrate.

So because of my mom, I have already shifted the perspective of this blog to a positive side. I'm going to look at the good side of things. We'll see where that goes.

Posted by Elliott at 10:09:00 PM | Permalink | Comments

Main Points:
1. I like sleep.
2. Sleep can be put in the category of chaos vs. peace.
3. Perhaps I want to be tired, which causes sleepiness.
4. Sleep is a need without reason.



In the midst of chasing chaos and confusion, I seem to always be behind on sleep. I find sleep to be one of the most fascinating things in the world. It's as if we need to step outside of this world for a while before we can come back in, hopefully refreshed.

I would defiantely qualify myself as a huge proponent of sleep. I just wonder how much should I define my life by it? Should we adapt ourselves to no sleep. (My freshman year I was able to stay up till 4 all the time). Or should I live a balanced life where sleep is a strong part of my life.

I see this as being part of the bigger picture of chaos vs growth. That said, sleep is really a mental state. Perhaps I want to be sleepy? Perhaps I want to believe I am being worked hard. I will have to ponder on that some time.

But one thing I know for certain is that sleep is one of those things that everyone persues. Like food and water, sleep is a necessity. Its just so wonderful because its not obvious why we need it. A need without a rational, how beautiful.

I'm going to end with one of my favorite taoist quotes butchered up of course:

"Why is it so much easier to enter into the sleep world than leave it?"

Posted by Elliott at 11:16:00 PM | Permalink | Comments

So you would think I would start with a bang. But I'm not. It's 1:30 in the morning and I've decided I'm going to start my new journey into philosiphy whether its with a cannon or with squirt gun.

I think its appropriate too. Everything starts in chaos. This is really no exception. In fact, I've decided this is my new battle in life. Deciding between a chaotic every changing, ever growing world and a still calm world. Parts of me want both.

Even this post is an example of that. I am searching for clarity of mind at 1:30 in the morning after writing a 7 page paper that was due at 12. My question is which side should I go. Should I aim for a life where I'll get to bed a decent hour and be effective at school? Or should I live a life meeting new residents everyday, constantly trying new things, taking risks, pushing myself.

Here is a list of the chaotic things I am persuing:

A powerful relationship with a ex-girlfriend that I keep running away from.
18 credit hour classes.
7 hours a day classes.
Being an RA for 40 residents.
Refusing to establish intimate friendships.
Trying to find what to do on the weekend.

Here is how I am trying to find peace:

Taking Spanish
Sleeping In
Taking a long shower
Listening to music
Doing my Laundry
Sleeping


But as is my philosiphy with most things: there is no such thing as a problem. I am not at battle between these two things. I have just identified a new goal in my life. I need to find peace in persuing chaos. Stillness within change. Perhaps I need to be peaceful in leaving those that love me. I need to be peaceful in working myself to death. But this is a very difficult task, as my mind is not set on persuing chaos. It is not logical. Man was meant to create order in this chaotic universe. Why am I creating more chaos? Perhaps this is the question I need to answer before I can move on. Before my writings become truth instead of confusion.

Posted by Elliott at 1:27:00 AM | Permalink | Comments